What happened to "time"?

Ah ha! Time! I guess as we live more and more minutes of our life, we always seem to have less and less minutes to fit everything in. I have been meaning to write here for a few days and have always been cut short of time.

In short (of time), this is what happened these few days:
1. Madelyn has started to respond occasionally with a cutie smile!
2. I conquered my latest obsession: Skip Hop Duo Double Diaper Bag.
(isn't it funny how I get so excited even though it's not a LV???)
3. I found "egg replacements" for baking. Matthew can finally have a piece of his birthday cake!
4. Submitted my taxes.
5. Reviewed my Excel balance sheets (yes, "hello kerry...!! Welcome back to the real - $$$- world!!)
6. Brought Matthew to demo music class (Matthew wanted to be held when other ppl were on the floor dancing..gotta get out more).

I'm trying to keep my expenses in check now by spending CASH. Yes, have gone back to the old school method.

Keeping it short, "that's all folks!"

I'm not dead yet!

Helloooooo??? Hello there??? YES, i'm still alive! It's been a few days since I've last gave you guys a piece of my mind. haha!!

Things have been slowly recovering. It's actually going before I'M GONE! Matthew is at the end of his antibiotics journey. It's funny how he's learned to like the strawberry tasting crap. Don't need to wrestle him down anymore. But, the phlegm is still bothering him lots. Ern was "Matthew-free" for 8 hrs last nite from 10-6. It began on a bumpy start tonite. He went down at 8 and as of now (10pm), he has woken up 3 times already. We revised our game plan and turned on the humidifier along with one session of "snot" retrieval (via the squirt thingy, not oral! ewww!!).

I have picked up a book called "Water for Elephants." It's really good! I'm almost done. I see the sticker on it says "Heather's picks" (from chapters). I bought it at a garage sale for $.75. I also got a lot of other books for $.25.

Tonite I have finally worked up the courage to review my excel sheet and take a "sneak" peak at my future "kaching" $$$ allocations...or better said as "options." It's not that bad, just have to be more wise in my spending habits. I guess I can withdrawl some RRSPs to kill off the student loans when time comes.

Meanwhile, one thing really stands true. "Survival of the Fitist." (I actually remember something from elementary school) I have ventured out of the comfort zone of my little dwelling for two consecutive days already. We hit Richmond Centre's airplane playground yesterday. We went to Superstore today (caught the organic milk in time before it's all gone.. a $1 saved is a $1 earned!!). So, it's not that bad after all. "If you think you can, YOU CAN." .. - Thank you very much!

Thank you Moms

I'm very greatful for my moms: Meiann and Agnes. My mom helped me buy some children's Tylenol, infant Tylenol, Children's Advil, infant Advil, and ginger ale (as you can see by the list of drugs we were quite desperate!!). Desperate but not crazy, we only fed him the infant Tylenol.

Today, Agnes (Ern's mommy) came over to help me with keeping Madelyn happy. Eh..heh..Matthew? He's still on "ma..ma..ma..ma" mode. It was great because I could atleast sneak in some down time when I put Matthew down for a nap.

Matthew's fever is still lingering around like a fly, but it's improving from a massive wasp to a tiny fruit fly (those that you're never quick enough to kill!). I hope it clears up soon for the well-being of all of us *sigh*. Meanwhile... his nose is constantly dripping with yellow goo (you might think i'm mean to have taken this pic, ..hey... might as well go cuckoo with a few laughs!). I'm so glad that Ern doesn't have to work tomorrow.

As a side note..I have been noticing that my Baby Brain has still not left me even though my two muchkins are no longer in me (but rather a constant extention of my legs or arms). Is it from my 2 years of sleep deprivation? Is it ever going to go away? Or..am I doomed for life. Well... we'll see as we roll along this sometimes bumpy road.

Although it's been tough, I will never trade away what I have now. The good times don't look so damn good without the bad days (unless you look at things through a glass of beer, which Ern and I had to result to last nite to calm down). I felt bad for being so mean to Matthew last nite (of course I didn't feel this way before my beer). Poor guy, so sick and being yelled at. Hey!...I was really freakin tired running on 2-3 hrs of sleep. Today I have changed and just told myself to take it easy.

Being parents can really bring out the monster in you. Scary eh! Now I know how being on the other side feels (yelling instead of being yelled at). Unfortunately...the grass in not greener on this side. Both jobs are hard: growing up and growing someone. Meanwhile..I can look outside my window at my growing tulips and daffodils and enjoy a zen moment.

Any insights on marathon running?

Parental Marathon: What's sleep??? Answer is when you die.

Preganancy: no sleep due to washroom drills

New parents: no sleep due to high need kids

Parents to teenagers: no sleep due to being too scared of what's going to happen next

Seniors: Do they ever sleep??



Usually I would depict a glass as being "half-full". Today it is truely a different story. Before I got pregnant, good sleep is 10 hours. I have currently "refreshed" my expcectations to a mere 4-5 hours.



Matthew's sickness got worse last night and his fever spiked past 39 degrees. Seems like the prescribed amount of 2 ml Tylenol doesn't cut it. So, we upped his dosage to 3 ml. Dunked him in some semi-warm water. After the bath and some vomitting we finally got him down at 4 am. Then, I went to greet my little Madelyn.

Starting off with 2 under 2...plus a whole lot of coughing and sneezing goodies

A little bit of background on my Blog's name "Ma..ma..ma..ma" on this grand opening occasion of my blog. The sound of the two characters put together are the constant sounds I hear now. These few days more than ever. For those who do not have children, you cannot understand how the sound of "ma ma ma" can ever be a bittersweet sound to one's ears. For those who have children who can't yet speak , I know you're very eager to have your little one say those exact words one day (God bless us). For me, I usually love to attend to my ever loving "ma ma ma" muchkin, but yesterday and today are a little different. The picture is this: I'm sick, Madelyn's sick, and Matthew's sick. Throw them all together in a pot. Crazy Ass Kerry by the time Ern comes home.

Yesterday's doc appointment was a productive one. Madelyn got her Hep B shots (so she will only need to be poked 3 instead of 4 times at her 2 month shots) and her Bronchiolitis (from RSV) is improving (doc is no longer concerned). Matthew will just need to tough it out b/c there are no drugs for him other than Tylenol for his fever.

Today... I've seen better days, but I thank God for every single day's experience. Off to Richmond Centre we go (mall rat??)!! Matthew catches much attention from grannies as he struts around with his doggy "backpack" (linked to mama by an extention..ok..leash). All of a sudden, a bomb of shooting vomit comes up after this little play time near his favourite ramp in front of Orange Julius. Poor guy! He coughed so hard he started to cry and then the eruption. It's not so bad compared to him throwing up at his bedtime the last two nites.

On the bright side, I got cute swimsuits for both my bambinos. Gymboree on sale for $15. I was going to buy a hat, but couldn't justify spending $17 for a hat. Now I may start to obsess over the thought of it like my Skip Hop bag and my BOB stroller (Garlee!!).

We had Curry tonite from Kabab and Kurry. It's a great authentic place located in the same complex as "Sun Tung Gei" Hotpot. But, it faces Alderbridge instead of Alexandra Road. Dunno why it opened there, but I hope it doesn't die. My taste buds have started their resurrection. So,..meanwhile curry is strong enough for me to taste something.

I'm very thankful for my wonderful husband who "eagerly" took over Matthew when he came home tonight.

Matthew has just gone down after he requested to go to bed...yipee! He actually told Ern he wanted to "gow gow" (sleep).

What a great ending to today! And we live happily ever after!